Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Think Im loosing it a tad...........

With T being sick, work being extra rough and hectic, moving and boxes and all I felt like sitting on the floor and bawling my eyes out last night. So much has happened in the last week to add to all this, one of my colleagues Dad passed away, another colleagues brother in law passed away another one's car was stolen, my friend was robbed of her cell phone. We have been short staffed because of all these dire circumstances. Plus I am sick, my child is sick and I have to pack and move and I can't keep my place clean and pack and be sick and nurse T......he he all just WAY too much. Then to top all this my gym "buddy" finishes work at four everyday and not 4.30 like I do, she sent an sms last night saying that she is going to gym earlier so she can be home at five. Well I have made a huge effort here, I get up at 5am and try to cook as much of that nights dinner as I can, I wash dishes pack boxes etc all before leaving for work. I have a child at home that needs me after work and he sacrifices that time for me to go to gym. When in actual fact if I think about it I could go in the morning before work and life would be normal, I always wake up early and have always exercised in the mornings. On the other hand after work it is quieter at gym which I like. But being the "paranoid" type I am feeling like I have been "rejected" & it is sore. I know I shouldn't feel this way and i shouldn't take it personally but I can't help it. Why do I feel like this?....................

4 comments:

momcat said...

Lulu you are trying to do too much. You don't have to move in a hurry so give the boxes a break. Believe me everything will be moved on time! Forget about gym if you are sick - the exercise will make you sicker. Its nice to have friends etc but your child and your schedule are your priority so fit it to suit yourself. Just concentrate on work and getting you and your boy well. Sometimes when we try to fit around others timetables we end up frustrating ourselves. Very common woman problem - believe me! Get well soon.

lulu said...

And THAT is why I follow your blog and feel a connection to you! Thanks man the common sence & good advice are always welcome and I needed this trust me! I usually do try and please everyone and as you say makes no sence. THANK YOU!!!

momcat said...

You are very welcome, Lulu!

angel said...

you should never gym if your feeling shirty! and you have a lot on your plateree to put girl- feel free to put gymming aside till you're done moving and everything!