Thursday, January 28, 2010

Thursday, January 21, 2010


I was tagged by Angel so let me have a go: I’m not going to tag anyone….use it if you wish.

Do you get regular massages? No, but I GIVE them and I have been told I am in the wrong profession :-)
Do you have an answering machine? I don’t have a land line
What cuss word do you use the most? “crap” is a favorite, I swear a bit too much when I am driving…..then it is a lot of “f” words…………and at work……
Are you underweight or overweight? Over…
Can you see your veins? Yeah

Soap? Sunlight baby soap…..
Fruit? Banana’s
Kind of red meat? T bone steak and lamb loin chops (I love the fat on them)
Fish? Haddock
Candy bar? I favour dark chocolate

Have You Ever…
Eaten a whole bag of potato chips? Nah only small ones
Eaten lobster? Yes
Climbed a mountain? Yes in the Drakensberg
Been skydiving? No
Been water skiing? Yes, what a thrill

Do You…
Wish you could change something about your life? Yes I do, my current favorite change would be to go back to the city and get my career back on track as I am at a dead end now……I’m working on it.
Like your nose? It’s ok I don’t dislike it
Like salt and vinegar chips? Yeah
Eat salsa? Yes not often
Own a boat? Nope might be nice though

What Is…
A small thing that people let slide but that actually has dire consequences? Manners…..actually they are kind of a big thing to me, I hate it when people are rude or they interrupt etc.
Your most macho trait? I have many, being a single mom with a son and my own place I have to have them. I do my own DIY mostly, I’m pretty strong, I can drink beer like a man :-)
The longest relationship you’ve ever had? 5 years with a person who until two months ago was STILL getting to me, but I woke up one day and decided that he was mostly likely the reason I had to move so far away and I am OVER him so I deleted everything off MXIT email cell ………… was a positive step towards the “new” me………..
Your most embarrassing thoughts? Ha ha the most private ones no doubt………….
Your most shameful moment? ONE was being stopped by a rather cute traffic cop one night, I was in the back of the car and XXXXXX was driving, he went off for something and I said “hey xxxxx he’s cute lets take him home and f… him”……………….he cleared his throat was standing just outside my drunken vision…………..but we didn’t get a ticket or anything. Or haven’t I used this in another tag? O well it was shameful!

Bath/Shower? Shower
Markers/ Crayons? Markers
Pens/ Pencils? Both
Jelly/ Cream Cheese? Both
Bagel/ Toast? Toast

My greatest weakness is… I guess my addiction to smoking….
I wish I was… Back in the city……………
Three things I wouldn’t do for a million dollars are… Murder (though it may be tempting depending on WHO was to be murdered…), ummmm bungi jump cos I would have a heart attack and die before I got the million dollars…….like Angel I wouldn’t sell my kid (though at times that might be tempting too)
The oddest thing I’ve ever put in my mouth is… I chew on all sorts of things all the time, pens, paper clips, the scoobie on my keyring… always got something strange in my mouth…..actually this is a dodgy trait

Credit card you had? Mastercard
Loan you got was for? From the bank to buy my first car
Paycheck was for how much? Not much less than 1000 bucks
Time you had stitches? When I tore the ligaments in my left ankle clean off………….
Time you went to the hospital for something? Wisdom teeth

List everything you ate in the last 24 hours? Toast and peanut butter, two banana’s, two chicken breast fillets, a boiled egg, some crackers and cheese, a rusk, salad
Last thing you used a credit card for? Don’t know I gave it up, o maybe Brutus’ kennel
What was your job previous to the one you have now? I was a call centre Supervisor
Last thing you celebrated? My son coming home after three weeks away…..
Last time you were at a sports bar? Long time ago, the Australian cricket team was over here some of them were in there too was a lekker party……………

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Work sucks!!

We all get turns here. It is a horrible place to work for the atmosphere sucks big time and there is always drama, bad vibes and bullshit! Today it is one of my friends; he is the colleague that organized Brutus for me. He was so angry at the way he was treated and threatened that he was pail and shaking. I haven’t seen somebody this angry in a very long time. I feel so bad for him and I know exactly how he feels.

This kind of thing happens all the time here, certain staff members get away with murder and others are picked on. Last week the technical supervisor was taken to task and the problem is that the people doing it all are the ones in positions of “power” but they don’t have all the facts and they just go off at the deep end and upset everyone for nothing.

Bad planning bad leadership and unfair treatment what a load of fucking bullshit this is! I try not to swear on my blog (don’t know why really) but FUCK I am so angry and really tired of it all. I find it childish and unnecessary and I think that this branch is going to start doing really badly soon if this carries on. I don’t know anyone that is happy here (o maybe a few but they are not the majority).

As I said I have “new” things for myself this year, so far I have tried very hard to distance myself from all the drama but they sometimes make it personal. This time I have stood up for my colleague and I guess I am going to “get it” for that too.

Just another shit day in Africa hey!!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Loads of time to think....................

T was away for three and a half weeks, that is a long time! I had plenty of time to think, about my life about my career (that isn't one anymore) and a lot of other things. I didn't go and join my family this Christmas, I stayed and looked after my dogs and house and did all sorts of things that you don't get a chance to do during the working year. It was lonely at times, but I needed this time and I have come out the other side wiser and happier and with some good future plans. I had a lot of rotten things happen to me in the last two years, and I guess in a way I was attracting some of this by sinking into despair and loosing "myself" along the way. I don't necessarily believe that a new year means a new start, but I know I feel new. Though having said that it started before 31.12.2009.

T has come back a little "new" too, I think it was hard for him to have Christmas without me he said it wasn't as exciting shame, he has been way more helpful and also seems to have matured a lot. He didn't want to go back to school but has enjoyed it so far and has been very positive!

No resolutions just goals and plans and my motto for 2010: "Every day in ever way things gets better and better"..................I affirm and visualize the things I want and I say this over and over. I am back on track and I am using my mind and attracting good things instead of bad.