Tuesday, March 17, 2009


Once again I don't know who wrote this but I enjoy this one:

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are. After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage.
We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation, when we retire.
The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway. One of my favorite quotes comes from Alfred D Souza. He said, "For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life.But there was always some obstacle in the way, Something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, or a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my "life".
This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time...and remember that time waits for no one.
So, stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school, until you lose ten pounds, until you gain ten pounds, until you have kids, until your kids leave the house, until you start work, until you retire, until you get married, until you get divorced, until Friday night, until Sunday morning, until you get a new car or home, until your car or home is paid off, until spring, until summer, until fall, until winter, until you are off welfare, until the first or fifteenth, until your song comes on, until you've had a drink, until you've sobered up, until you die, until you are born again to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination, so relax and live life to the fullest!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Hello Tuesday

I'm tired, really tired. All this strain at work is a killer & somebody special to me is being considered for retrenchment in PTA Branch, I am so sad for her. I phoned her yesterday she said "Turks" (my nickname is Turkey but only to 2 very special people "La lee" & "Sheep"........ha ha) "Turks I don't know what the fuck to say"................"I HATE not being in control I wish it was over either way". La lee (also a nickname) I'm really sorry this is happening to you, you are on my mind ALL the time in a way I wish I was still there to take you out at lunch time and buy you chocolate like I did when you were pregnant, or have a black label with you like we did when you weren't :-)............I'm sitting here wanting to CRY for you. Everything happens for a purpose girl and I know you are going to go on to bigger & way better things but I know how this feels been there, it ain't nice!! As for our branch; the manager is away until tomorrow so we are also "up in the air" and don't know anymore than we did last week. I'm not scared for me I am sad for the ones that have to go. It is scary that there are so many and we are a HUGE corporation what about the smaller ones? I know it makes business sense to "trim the fat" but personally it sucks!!

Weekend was too short............

Well it went by really fast for me, I managed to unpack some more boxes and hang up some pictures and paintings now it feels even more like home. The DSTV(cable) is up and running though we only have one channel of course :-). We are going to get those sensors and an extra remote then we can change channels etc when the owners are not there in their flatlet they only sleep here once or twice a week so it is lovely. Whenever I dreamt about "my house" I saw a HUGE yesterday, today and tomorrow bush in the garden I have a thing about them and the sent on a late summers evening. Guess what? We have such a bush and it is BIG. There are so many things that I pictured in my head & dreams that are there in that house. It is perfect for us and the more my subconscious reminds me the more it feels like it was truly meant to be. It has all been overshadowed by the crap at work and financial stresses but I took a step back and relaxed enough to enjoy my house this weekend. Yesterday afternoon I worked in the garden for two hours weeding and cutting edges with a spade, making it neater and smarter. My hands are still dirty it wont come off he he. I do have gloves but I like doing it without. I have no nails left and I am as happy a a pig in sh*t!! This evening we are going to mow the lawn. AFTER gym.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

I was told "in confidence" .....................

It seems like I don't have to worry.................that's all I'm saying..............I had a rough night last night was so down and grumpy I didn't even go to gym. I went to the bottle store and got myself some cheap hooch had four doubles cooked dinner and fell asleep on the couch :-) What a wonderful night I had, I woke up on couch at 9 and then slept in my bed until the morning. I feel refreshed and rested and was in a great mood this morning. Then I came to work and the BM had a word with me, and now I am off to the bank to sort out some more things. So it seems I am on a roll and maybe now I can enjoy my new home as much as I want.....

It is a typical tropical day here today hot as hell and I so don't do the heat and sun. I am glad my appointment at the bank is at 10.30 before it gets too hot and busy.

T has had a few hiccups at school with spelling tests, but this week we tried a new learning method and he got 7/10, he is proud of himself and I am so proud of him......he really would rather be outside watching spiders or drawing or making things out of wood this child of mine, he doesn't like sitting in the classroom and writing etc. I can relate to that I hated school myself, so I am not too hard on him, but he has to go to detention tomorrow for failing four spelling tests and there is nothing I can do to stop it. The teacher said he didn't learn or do his homework. Three of them he indeed didn't so he must be corrected, the third one he and I learnt together and he still failed, but after that we tried another way and it is going well. I asked the teacher to help me and she made suggestions, the same teacher that I bashed heads with earlier in the year...oops.

Now it is 'tomorrow" and T has detention until three, makes the work day drag when you can only go out at three I kind of like fetching him from school and taking him home because I get a break. It isn't so hellish busy here today as usual but there are painters here driving us crazy causing my sinuses to be very unhappy and headaches. Thank goodness it's Friday!!!!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Cutting Costs at Work

So we on a HUGE cost saving mission at work. We belong to a very large group and they take no prisoners. The two managers called me in today and said HO wants THREE names of people the branch can retrench by end of March. Ai what a nasty thing, I told them two names as they are reps that have never sold a thing since they have been here and that is a relatively easy decision, but number THREE? .............they agreed with my two names and kept pushing for a third, saying that it could be either of them etc. I didn't commit to a name, they asked me if I could do extra work seeing as how I do so much already told them nothing is impossible I guess everything can be worked around. I am feeling insecure I have worked for this company (with three years broken service) a total of 19 years and I was in Management most of that time. I do 150% and way exceed my job spec's etc, I still think like a Manager and do what is best for the company as a whole. I work very hard and I have a wealth of knowledge and experience. But they hasn't endeared me to my colleagues as I have previously stated and that makes me nervous. The Managers on the other hand appreciate my input etc so who is to say what will happen. I only know if I loose my job I am totally screwed I am the only bread winner and am going through a rough financial patch as it is. I actually don't need this crap right now but on the other hand trials and hardships make us stronger and build character. I honestly can think of a few pieces of "driftwood" that could be sent on their way but I don't trust these people enough to be that honest with them, learnt that the hard way since I have worked in this town. Theystick together like glue and through thick and thin. So I never did end up giving them a name and I wonder when they had one on ones with the other admin staff who's name they all gave? I can only hope that my experience and the fact that I can do most of the other's jobs and can multitask very well will save me from this. I have the most SAP (our operating system) experience at the branch and I help out EVERYONE at some time or other who knows what will happen? We have a meeting at 7.30 tomorrow morning and the whole branch HAS to be here. Good Luck to me!!

Monday, March 9, 2009

PARENT - Job Description

Just got this email had it before but it worth a read:

POSITION :Mom, Mommy, Mama, MaDad, Daddy, Dada, Pa, Papa

JOB DESCRIPTION :Long term, team players needed, for challenging, permanent work in an often chaotic environment. Candidates must possess excellent communication and organizational skills and be willing to work variable hours, which will include evenings and weekends and frequent 24 hour shifts on call.Some overnight travel required, including trips to primitive camping sites on rainy weekends and endless sports tournaments in far away cities!Travel expenses not reimbursed.Extensive courier duties also required.

RESPONSIBILITIES :The rest of your life.Must be willing to be hated, at least temporarily, until someone needs R10.Must be willing to bite tongue repeatedly.Also, must possess the physical stamina of a pack mule and be able to go from zero to 60 mph in three seconds flat in case, this time, the screams from the backyard are not someone just crying wolf.Must be willing to face stimulating technical challenges, such as small gadget repair, mysteriously sluggish toilets and stuck zippers.Must screen phone calls, maintain calendars and coordinate production of multiple homework projects.Must have ability to plan and organize social gatherings for clients of all ages and mental outlooks.Must be a willing to be indispensable one minute, an embarrassment the next.Must handle assembly and product safety testing of a half million cheap, plastic toys, and battery operated devices.Must always hope for the best but be prepared for the worst. Must assume final, complete accountability for the quality of the end product.Responsibilities also include floor maintenance and janitorial work throughout the facility.

POSSIBILITY FOR ADVANCEMENT & PROMOTION :None. Your job is to remain in the same position for years, without complaining, constantly retraining and updating your skills, so that those in your charge can ultimately surpass you

PREVIOUS EXPERIENCE :None required unfortunately. On-the-job training offered on a continually exhausting basis.

WAGES AND COMPENSATION :Get this! You pay them!Offering frequent raises and bonuses.A balloon payment is due when they turn 18 because of the assumption that college will help them become financially independent.When you die, you give them whatever is left.The oddest thing about this reverse-salary scheme is that you actually enjoy it and wish you could only do more.

BENEFITS :While no health or dental insurance, no pension, no tuition reimbursement, no paid holidays and no stock options are offered; this job supplies limitless opportunities for personal growth, unconditional love, and free hugs and kisses for life if you play your cards right.Forward this on to all the PARENTS you know, in appreciation for everything they do on a daily basis, letting them know they are appreciated for the fabulous job they do... or forward with love to anyone thinking of applying for the job. ** AND A FOOTNOTE 'THERE IS NO RETIREMENT -- EVER!!! **

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

I moved, I'm broke and I'm trying to fix it.................

Hey hey thanks Angel for my birthday cupcake and post it was way kewl! Well I moved, I did it. But I have been in so much pain since then and am so highly stressed out that I haven't had time to enjoy it yet. My back is very very angry with me and it refuses to work and I am walking like a hunch back or like somebody with a carrot up their butt.....:-) My bro couldn't make it for the weekend and that sunk my spirits a lot. I worked very hard all day Saturday and I even got the fishes back into their tank before nightfall. I worried only about my animals, Thomas cat thinks that this new house is too cool, he moves from window to window surveying his territory and lying on the sills looking out. He refused to stay inside for the recommended three days when we first moved here and this time he also wanted out by Sunday morning, he is a seven year old wise cat and he went out for a bit came back to check we still there and out again....each time going a bit further and exploring a bit more. He seems to be visiting next door already where there is an aftercare centre and comes home FAT and happy each afternoon, oops I think he is being spoilt.

The stress levels are high, we having a rough time at work, home is rough. I am on my way to the bank AGAIN to try and solve my financial problems and I might be moving to another bank because my current one keeps giving me more money and it isn't solving a dam thing. yeah I PAY all the debts and yeah I am a great customer so help me FFS. I have been to them three times in the last four years for advice and they keep loaning me money increasing my OD etc. Well time to grow up financially and sort out the crap. I can't stress every single month about every single thing and so I need statements and I'm off to another bank who will help me consolidate and sort out. So after thirty one years with the same bank I might well be changing. I am so stressed about money and finances right now I can't sleep can't think straight and I can't even enjoy my new home. It's eating me inside and I HAVE to solve it for once and for all. So wish me luck!!