Sunday, October 25, 2009

This is just not healthy...........

It isn't healthy to smoke, which I took up again since being here, it isn't healthy to drink too much, which I have been doing lately. It also isn't healthy to over eat and eat the wrong things which I have also been doing. Well the results speak for themselves, I'm nice a "chubby" ha ha right fat actually, I am tired all the time and I can't go for two hours without a smoke and I want to climb the walls, though I do force it at times for up to 12 hours at a time.

It also isn't healthy to want to "cry" on a Monday morning because I have to come to work? WTF? I am a big grown up person and I could really just bawl when I have to come here, especially Monday's.

First thing is no more alcohol for a bit because if I have it I have too much, I sleep very well afterwards but it is very fattening and unhealthy! So I'm going on weighless from tomorrow (we get paid today so I can stock up on the right foods). T is joining me so I am sure we will do it! Secondly I am starting to "delay" my fags for as long as I can in between so I can slowly wean myself off like I did 3 years ago. I know that I can't do it all at once, diet, quit booze and fags, but I can start off slowly and take it from there. I am thinking that if I start loosing weight and feeling better about myself I will focus on that and the work situation won't be so bad. I have allowed it to get out of hand, and I need to focus more on my LIFE than my job right now.

wish me luck!!

6 comments:

momcat said...

Hi Lulu, Wishing you all the best for the lifestyle changes you are about to make. I'm sure you will start to feel a lot better. Sometimes the quick fixes of cigs and junk food end up making us feel worse. I had Dael reduced down to 6 cigs a day so he would smoke half at a time (although sometimes he would sneak another one) because I am on such a strict budget. This was because he wasn't working. His sister who is working would spend about R800 a month (pack a day) which I consider a total waste of money. I'm too scotch to burn money like that. I would always rather buy food. As you manage to reduce, take that money and spend it on an outing for you and your son so that you are both benefiting from your healthy living and the money is not just going into bills.

angel said...

Lulu darling, I love how you're making changes- but I do worry that you may need more "help"...
Strongs with the diet- I will be able to commiserate with you every step of the way!

Martha and Bailey said...

Wishing you well, all journeys start with a single step.
Making positive lifestyle changes will help you feel more in control.
Just don't be too hard on yourself.
A set back is not a failure - just another opportunity.
You can do it!!!!You Go Girl!!

lulu said...

Momcat - I spend way too much on smokes thats why I quit in the first place. I am doing well on the "go slow" with smokes thanks for the advise.

Angel.......nah I don't need more "help" I just need to stop letting this situation get to me and focus on all the GOOD things we have here, this is a stepping stone it's not forever.

Martha and Bailey's Mom....thanks I have rather gone backwards lately and I was feeling like a failure until I realised that it isn't only me that is so unhappy here, but a lot of the staff. THANK YOU I CAN I WILL!!!

Brigitte said...

Oh Lulu, you are one tough chick!! I know how it feels to overdo the whole eating thing too. The other night my boys laughed at me when i said i wasn't going to eat any dinner because I had finally restored harmony and peace to my tummy and there was NO way I was going to upset that. Eating the right thing foods will definately make you feel less tired and more able to focus. Good luck Doll, I know you can do it!

lulu said...

Thanx Brig, guess what yesterday I could wear my belt agian after THREE weeks where it would choke me and make it impossible to breath once I sat down! LOL! So that is a start my friends!