Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Time to quit..............AGAIN

I was doing so well on my way to “quitting” when all the chaos happened at home and financial year end stock take etc. So my quit basically flew out the window. I let myself smoke and didn’t worry about it too much until this week. Yesterday I went to the pharmacy and got nicorette gum and joined the nicorette “kick back” programme online. My new “quit date” is tomorrow 03.06.2009. They called me just now to see how I’m doing and if I’m ready for tomorrow. What a nice way to start. Last time I went “cold turkey” and I did it for ten months, but I had mountains of support. My Dad sms’d me everyday and I had a quit buddy at work and loads of friends supporting me. So I know how important the support is especially in the first few weeks.

So tomorrow morning when I wake up I have to chew gum instead of smoke. I have to do it this time, financially smoking is ruining my budget and making me suffer and it is a quick way to save a lot of money at once. The medical aid paid for the gum and the quit programme is free so there is no excuse this time. I am a bit nervous that I won’t stick to it but I know I CAN do it.

I also know that it makes you feel amazing, when you quit. I am talking about inside, you feel strong and confident and almost like if you can quit smoking you can do anything……………..I was so proud of myself last time and so many people were very proud of me. I want to feel that way again. I want my clothes and hair to stop smelling of smoke, I want to use the money more wisely; I want to be healthier. I want to feel strong again!! I want my child to stop worrying about my health and to be proud of me for doing it. I only hope I want it badly enough!!

5 comments:

angel said...

I am so proud of you!

Beth said...

You can do it! I have complete faith in you!

lulu said...

thanks guys I really hope I dont let you down or myself!!

Martha Basset said...

Good luck! I know what you are saying about how good you feel when you quit - although I dont smoke I feel exactly like that when I am sticking to a diet and doing well!
I guess it is a feeling of being in control - all things go well until there is a crisis!
I want chocolate like you want a cigarette.
You have had a difficult time - take it a day at a time.
xx

momcat said...

It really is mind over matter Lulu. A girl in my office said to me that with all my stress I should take up smoking. I just thought 'Where would I find the money for that'. I think the idea of relinquishing control of my actions to a substance is just a horrible thought to me. I know that you will get it right and you will use the money to spoil yourself and your boy. In fact every night that you dont buy a box of smokes take that money out of your cash and bank it.