I am battling to get “started” this year, I have been back at work two weeks now and it has been very busy so far, the planning has been totally off as most of the staff are on leave now when things are busy so the few of us that are here are running around like chickens without heads. While I know in my head I must be very grateful that I have a job, the year lies ahead like a huge mountain that I have no ambition to climb. The depression monster came out to haunt me again and I have been in a rather dark place the last few days.
Having said that I have a lot to be grateful for and good things have been happening too. I got nine garden pots from a colleague who is changing his garden. I have always wanted to plant a container garden in my courtyard but didn’t really have the financial resources to go ahead, now I have the pots & can start planning my container garden. I am really looking forward to doing this. It is hard to grow flowers and herbs etc in the main garden as the hounds tend to mess up the smaller plants, in the courtyard they will be protected and the dogs cannot go there without me.
I am working on two blankets at this stage, one for the friend that stayed in my house and looked after my dogs when I went away in December and another one for my mother. Both are knee size blankets so don’t take long to do. I made almost all my own Christmas gifts this year and they were very well received. My sister in law actually cried when she opened her gift which was two hand crocheted sunburst cushion covers (cushions included). I am being encouraged to start selling my handmade items from all sides; it is one more thing I must work up to doing. Any extra income will only improve my life and make things a bit easier.
I have missed T he is coming home on Saturday finally; I am hoping that this will get me out of my rut and into full swing. I think maybe when I am back in mother mode and school starts again and one just has to deal with everything and do everything in a rush then I will get back into routine and the year will not seem so daunting to me. Having said that T starts High School next week and that is also stressing me out. He tends to be lazy at school and just cruises along, I need to push him harder and higher this year and it is a daunting task. I hope I am up to it!