Friday, October 8, 2010

Have you ever been so angry that.............

I am so angry right now, so angry that I am calm, deadly calm. So angry that my chest feels like it is going to explode, so angry that I am having trouble breathing, I am so angry that I want to cry (I HATE this one why do I always want to cry when I get really angry?). I am so angry that thoughts of doing really dodgy things are coming into my head. I have had enough at work, I cannot go on like this anymore. I really am about to explode. My weeks leave was so amazing, I was so happy and one week back and I want to DIE..............the depression is deep and dark and I am so ANGRY!!!

3 comments:

Momcat said...

Im so sorry. If only we could get paid for staying at home. Channel your anger into action. You cannot stay in this frustrating position for ever because stress is going to make you ill. You need to make long term goals to change your future. And you need to make short term goals to help you cope with the stress. I am with you all the way.

lulu said...

Thank you, I agree it is going to make me ill! I am feeling better after the weekend and am calmer today, have decided to try and not let them get to me anymore!

Martha and Bailey said...

Sorry you are having such a difficult time.
It is not always easy to get another job when you need it but clearly you need to be looking.
Try to distance yourself from what is going on - easier said than done I know.
Take care x